CT scan results showed enlarged lymph nodes in both arm pits and in my stomach.
Definitely not the news I was expecting. I really had myself convinced I'd be in and out of his office, absorbing good news and scheduling my de-porting surgery at the front desk. I forgot that it's called "remission" not "cured."
PET scan on Tuesday. Answers on Wednesday. Staying calm and positive for the most part, but my mind keeps slipping into a world of what-ifs. I'm scared, but I refuse to live in fear. It's a hard balance to achieve. One thing to think about is that I have a nasty cold at the moment, which means it's a total possibility that that's the reason the nodes are enlarged. They might just be working overtime to filter out a nasty virus.
I hope, hope, hope.
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